article: Maybe if I try it this way... | written down

....I’ll be able to comment on Sarah’s post as I can’t get into the comments.
Hello Sarah,
I can’t just dive in, in the way that so many others seem to have managed so far but I can doodle and scribble in my ‘planning-experiment notebook’ which is part of the project/challenge just for me and will not get posted here at all.
I never intended to post everything I create, for a start I could not keep the sort of pace that others have shown they can and secondly to be absolutely frank I am doing this for myself and though I am pleased to find a group of creative people walking the same road I know that my eyes will see things they will not and visa versa and though we may pass each other and give greeting the journey is mine and the map I make of the journey will help me chart my progress, discovery and understanding and in truth that’s all I can aim for. I can’t be worrying whether anyone else will understand or like what I create frankly the feedback will be fun but in honesty I am the only one I can measure myself against and my first and foremost goal was to actually enrol to the group and secondly to use the ‘challenge’ as a prompt not a directive, edict or summons but a nudge and that has begun with my ‘planning-experiment book’ and mini experiments in 3D trying to decide on shape and form of journal. Thirdly my goal was to travel through the twenty weeks at my own pace in my own way and with my own truth and accept everyone else will be doing that too.
I don’t this as a contest or a competition just as companionable journey as I may wish to make it no more no less.
I may call myself an artist but that doesn’t mean arty fart. For me, an Artist who capitalises and puffs their chest out might as well be farting their art as it’s full of hot air and has a whiff of sulphur about it. Whereas, an artist is a pilgrim by another name. They prepare, they think, they offer up prayers-chants-affirmations and they move off on the journey with as much an open heart and mind as they can muster and a place deep at the centre of themselves seeking longing reaching towards they know not what but like the footsteps of the pilgrim the marks an artist makes on the material they are using offers them reason to believe they are actually travelling, gives them means to find what they’ve always known but have forgotten and the understanding that whatever they discover is transitory and continually transforming into another step on the road or another mark on their chosen project. That those marks can be made with any tool or material when it comes to this ‘challenge’ is a bit mind boggling for me so I am setting my own limits and then breaking them but that as they say is between me and my planning-experiment notebook.
When I hadn’t managed to open the first PDF file that Shimelle sent us I did what I do most mornings and I wrote to myself. Looking at that sheet of paper last night I realised that this will be come the springboard from which I will create my journal if you go to this link http://animatedstardust.typepad.com/daisywinifred/2005/05/stretch_into_su.html#more
you’ll see it’s no work of art in sense of getting brownie points from the art establishment or the scrapbook community but for my heart and mind its fine and for that centre of me that some people refer to as soul it’s an echo, a glancing touch and I’m plodding forward towards the end of twenty weeks…and beyond, I hope you’ll travel along with me for a while:0)

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